Mojo

I think my mojo blew away with lasts night’s winds; that’s how I am feeling today anyway. My mind begins its song battle with my body. There are many things I would like to achieve today my thoughts chorus and ideas crescendo in my mind. My body then sings a little louder so I hear it warble that it needs attention and wants to be put first.

So compromise is going to be the order of the day. The physical tasks will be minimal and of priority whilst I also incorporate some of the more cerebral ones. Rest will get a good look in as well. I can see the triggers that have occurred to result in today’s outcome. Those I could not change even if it was in my power to go back in time. All I can do today is manage the best I can by doing what is helpful for me.

For a long time, probably most of my life actually if I think about it and even to this day, I have kept quite a lot to myself. I have retained personal things closely for the most part. I have not divulged wholly what I have or am going through. At times even those closest to me may have had inkling but not known exactly. This is changing. My loved ones do now hear in more detail what I am experiencing on all levels both out of their persistence of caring and my trust in them.

It is quite liberating to acknowledge and accept that you have loved ones you can let in. I have been more than aware that in society in general, when someone asks how you are doing, you chocolate wrap your real feelings, add sprinkles on top and present it as a more palatable ‘Great thanks’. Not many like the taste of someone disclosing what’s really going on within; this is too sour for their palate. The exceptions to this are the folks who radiate compassion, kindness and a caring at a level far greater than your average bear. These are the folks you hold close and keep within your inner world. These folks are gold!

I am rather fortunate in that I somewhat enjoy my own company in restful quietness. It is both soul soothing and as I have learned over recent years, also quite beneficial and rejuvenating for the body too. I can happily take comfort in seeing a pretty rose or flower in my garden and hearing the visiting birds chirping to their hearts content. I do not need much more.

For today, although not okay, I am okay. For today, although I cannot do a lot, I can do some. For today, although I am limited, I am capable. For today, although I am not at my best, I can do what is best for me. For today, although I don’t have my true mojo, I know this is temporary.

Enjoy what you can and do what you are capable of; that is plenty x